OKay, I'm going on a bit of a social hiatus. If I talk to anyone, don't expect it top be in a friend way, just as an artist. I'm not into talking right now. The only people I'll be conversing with are as followed:
Dana
Josh B.
Josh R.
Sally
Savvy
My Family.

This is to be able to clear my head for a while, to be able to find a sort of escapism from the world I have made myself face. If you;d like, continue on reading this pathetic drabble of a tired and humiliated girl.


WARNING: RANT AHEAD. TURN BACK IF YOU WANT TO ESCAPE WITH YOUR HAPPINESS INTACT.

I am running out of steam.

I am tired of most things in my life.

I'm tired of trying to be someone I'm not. I'm tired of being friends with people only because they're my other friends friends. I'm tired of putting on a smile when people say things I don't like, but everyone else agrees. I'm tired of the homophobes I have to try and please because they have yet to realize that I am gay. I'm tired of these standards set for me. I'm tired of jumping through hoops every day to stay afloat. I'm tired of being a good girl, and not getting visibly upset by people all lovey dovey with their girlfriends/boyfriends, when I'm single, and feel so fucking bad to watch them, because I wish I had what they had. I'm tired of doing things for others, and getting nothing in return. I'm tired of taking it up the ass for others and getting my face kicked in for it. I'm fucking tired of listening to others gloat about their relationships with no pretense that they may be hurting me when they mention that they have it so much better than me. I'm tired of it. I'm tired of sounding happy when the person I like talks about his 'amazing girlfriend' and watching him float in the sky over her. I'm tired of listening to everyone else problems, and getting no one to listen to me{Dotluvr is an exception}. I'm just fucking tired of it.

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You may think I'm okay, if you think okay is the person who almost hates talking to her friends and just wishes she could go an entire day without seeing one familiar face.

I FUCKING AM NOT OKAY.